Wow, what a year. I think that’s all I can say to be perfectly honest (but of course if you know me, you’ll know I’m only kidding and there’s a whole post about to come).
I started the year as a pregnant 22-year-old who felt she was the size of a whale and I’ve ended it as a 23-year-old mother to a beautiful eight-month-old little boy and well, still feeling very much like a whale.
I can’t sit here and type the word’s ‘it’s been easy’ because truthfully, it hasn’t. In fact, this year has been the hardest year I’ve ever had to go through. Forget sitting my GCSEs, A-Levels or stressing over my degree. This has been the toughest time, but by far the most rewarding.
But, I’ve never felt so proud of myself as I do right now, sat here, typing away. I have the most wonderful, supportive family and the most beautiful friends who have made me realise that I’m not alone in all of this, and of course I’ve been blessed with the sweetest little boy I could have ever imagined. I’m proud of myself in so many ways. For facing every fear of childbirth, for learning to overcome my anxiety and depression, for being a bloody good mother (if I do say so myself) and for the plans that are taking shape for the year ahead.
I’ve learnt that everything we go through, good or bad, is set to shape us. It’s there to mould us into the person we are meant to be in the year ahead. Every little struggle is worth it and you’ll soon realise what it is that you’re meant to be doing. I’ve not found becoming a mother, maintaining a home and a relationship easy, but I now know I’m capable of doing it and I know that I’m not too bad at it either.
I’ve discovered so much about myself and as cliche as it may sound, I’m entering 2018 a new and improved, happier me. We have so much to look forward to as a family and I have set myself some pretty tough goals for 2018, but I am so excited about putting my all into achieving them.
I realise that I’m going to have bad days that come and go, but that’s just it, they’ll pass. And it’s important for me to remember that when the day seems dark, there’s a brighter day ahead.
Letting things go is a major lesson I have learned this year and one goal I have set myself for the year ahead. Whether it’s toxic people that you don’t need to continue bothering with, or letting go of something that no longer excites you, whatever it is, leave it in 2017.
Also, despite what people may say or think, or what I may say or think myself, I know I’m a fantastic mother to Archie. The past eight months have been incredibly difficult, the hardest I’ve ever had to experience, but the smile on that little boy’s face is worth every single minute of it.
I am honestly so excited for what is to come. This year has been absolutely amazing and one I will most definitely never forget, but it’s only been the start to what is about to shape the rest of our lives of my beautiful little family. This year we will celebrate Chris’ 30th, Archie’s 1st and my dad’s 50th birthday and that’s only the start of the fantastic things we’ll be celebrating this coming year.
Stay tuned for some very exciting news…
What are your goals for 2018?